Remembering Daddy

Dear Daddy, daddy

It has been a year when you have decided to leave this world for a better place. I wouldn’t say that you have left us as I know that wherever you are, you are watching over us.

I cannot say that it was easy living life without you. For the past year, we have coped in our own separate ways and was able to move on with our lives. But it is not the same. There are still times that I would just want to sit quietly beside you and be comforted by just your mere presence. No words are needed. I’ve had several road blocks in life since you were gone and I try to overcome them by following all your advice. And I would like to thank you for that. But then again, remembering your advice and talking to you and listening to your voice are two different things.

It would have been fun to see you meet your first grandchild. I’m sorry that you two didn’t meet. He came a little too late. You would have been so proud of him. He is a fighter just like you. It would have been so perfect (for the lack of other terms) had you still been here to watch him grow. I think he would have been a grandpa’s boy. 🙂  My only hope is that I can raise him as you have raised us.

I miss you. I miss your jokes, I miss the joyrides, I miss the quiet evenings spent at the dining table discussing whatever we all thought of. I miss the jamming sessions, I miss the Sunday picnics. I miss having you around. And I don’t think words could really express how much I miss you.

There’s not much that I can say, really. I wish you were still here. A year after you’ve gone and it is still not easy not having you here.  Wherever you are, I hope that you continue to watch over us.